Monday, May 29, 2006

What a bummer.

Missus has been tutoring (read torturing) our daughter for SAT exam. The exam was scheduled to begin today but we found out from school that the exam paper has not yet arrived from UK…. (I could not fucking believe that!). There was a letter from school advising parents about this deferment until …well..I guess until they receive the paper, which is unknown to them as I am writing this.
According to my daughter, when the school announced about the deferment, most of the pupils were relief, but not she though. What a bummer... she would love to get it over with. A postponed exam means an indefinite time frame for her to continuously study every night, sleep early with no outing, computer and extended hours of watching tv. I can just imagine how stress that is!

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

I smoke

I smoke, and I don’t protest to the fact that smoking increases the risk of lung cancer. I do know how lethal this habit is. I am trying to quit but…hear me out..

Last night I was walking to my car, passing through a group of some five people who apparently didn’t know how to pick a spot to gather so as not to obstruct passageway. So they were gathering right in the middle of a small path for me to pass by. I excused myself courteously (mind you, I am always polite..), they broke the cluster and gave way. I don’t smoke in the house, so as usual when I left my apartment that night, I immediately lit my fag. When I passed this group, I had my cigarette but I didn’t take a puff or blow a smoke.

What got on my nerves was when I noticed from the corner of my eyes, one guy from the group was looking or rather ogling at me and babbling something referring to my cigarette smoke that he could smell. He seemed to be holding his breath the seconds I passed him …well I guess he was trying to be safe from being a second hand smoker. When I looked back, he gave me that ‘just-kill-yourself-NOT-US-with-your-cigarette’ face. That pissed me off, I mean, first, you were making your little convention in the middle of the road, second, I didn’t take a puff when I passed by and third, you should’ve thanked me coz I could’ve blown a good cloud of smoke right to your face. So I stared back, and gave him a good ‘fuck-you-too’ face!

I am a smoker, and please do not expect me to just throw my pricey cigarette when I pass by you for your fuck sake!
Ok....fact is there are smokers and non-smokers in this world. To me, the dissection does not in any way representing a division between a healthy conscious and non-healthy conscious lots. There are about trillion things that you have to observe to keep yourself healthy, like-wise trillion things to kill yourself – yes, smoking is just one of them.

It is absurd to single out smoking as the culprit to cancer or other heart related diseases. We are all misled by theories and unproven researches done by non-smokers scientist or specialist. What the’re doing is actually trying to impose their personal preference onto others. It has nothing to do with health. Yes, smoking may be bad to you, so is imbalance diet, or not exercising, or being in the middle of highly polluted area, or sunbathing, or driving, or eating seafood, or walking down the traffic-craze roads. Most of us live in a perpetual haze of atmospheric pollutants that have nothing at all to do with cigarette. Fact that you don't choose the one particular risk does not mean that you are not exposed to a more serious risk because of other choices that you personally don't regard as significant, despite the fact that they are more likely to wind up killing you.

Another thing, I read in one article that says, Quote “…there are scientific studies that purportedly prove that smoking increases one's risk of cancer, however, it does not cause cancer, contrary to everything you've ever read. That has never been proved. What has been proved (despite the logical holes in those studies) is that smoking can increase your risk of cancer. That's all. The fact that this proof has gone long undisputed has allowed anti-smoking groups to equate increased risk with cause, but those two terms are not equivalent. If smoking caused lung cancer, one would expect all or even most smokers to develop lung cancer, but the fact of the matter is that only a tiny fraction of all smokers develop the disease, and non-smokers develop it as well, just is slightly lesser numbers.” Unquote.

What I am trying to get to here is that why most of us always pick on smoking when there are actually other equally weighted factors that could harm your health…like lack of exercise and imbalance diet. Smoking is as bad as shoving in food with saturated fat, trans fat or hydrogenated oil. The guy that gave me that look last night was obese as pig with a BMI index of most probably not less than 40 if not more, save that hold-your-breath crap that you did, with that extra pounds you carry for lack of exercise and overeating, you’d probably die of heart attack anyway.

By the way there was a study about second hand smoker that proved all the studies done before are just bunches of lying sack of shits.. Passive smoking doesn't cause cancer....I knew it!

Monday, May 08, 2006

*sigh..*

Man…I was so tight up last week, shitloads of assignment landed on me with unreasonable datelines given. I didn’t even go to my blog to update (or rather to express my ill will). I was thinking why were all these tasks coming all at the same time? Just weeks before that, I was psychologically tortured by the ticking of my watch waiting for the day to end…I was practically doing nothing in office. I may have looked real busy alright… eyes glued to PC with fingers prolifically punching keyboard – shit I was actually writing junk emails, sending jokes and browsing ‘real-strange-sites’ all week.

Had bad war of words experience this morning though, one motherfucker of one uncivilized continent with billion uncontrollable populace origin thought he could get away scot-free by assuming I forget what I said few weeks ago. Too bad you shithead, I happened to record everything and dare to quote what I said. I was quarrelling with him (I should’ve not entertained this moron at the first place), and at one point I just could not take his sordid tongue twisted squabble that I kept quiet and put down the phone. I despised him the moment I first met him (what do you expect of a person who wear sunglasses in office…ok may be he got a bit carried away with too much pathetic bollywood movies), but …nevermind!. I just knew then if our company had to deal with this moronic character, we would be looking at hell in from of us….and true enough we have already felt the heat now...